Here I stand. A new person. In some ways, a better person. In some ways a more broken person, but in some more whole. A reflection over this past year has brought heartache, pain, joy, regret, grief, excitement, passion and even a little pride. Even for a Gemini, that’s one twisted set of emotions.
But here I stand. Not so twisted as one would think. And I can honestly say I have felt ALL those emotions at one time… in the past day…and am the MOST stable I’ve been in years. LOL!
The thing is, I know that EVERY single mother reading this right now, can agree that they’ve felt these same caliber of emotions all at once, at some point during their motherhood. Maybe even, as it is for me, many times.
Is THIS what separates us from our species counterparts? You should have seen the looks of fear and pure confusion that I have experienced! (Maybe you’ve experienced the same?) You’d think I had one eye and a horn… or maybe that I spit fire …
But I don’t. I’m not as big of a monster as I seem to portray. I’m human. I’m female, yes, but I’m still human.
And as much as those judgmental counterparts don’t want to admit it, they are human too. They feel the same things, they just chose to ignore them, whereas, women understand the importance of each one.
Heartache makes happiness that much sweeter. Pain means we’re still alive. Joy means we’re doing something right. Regret reminds us to always strive for more. Grief humbles us and provides a good cry. Excitement motivates a tired soul. Passion releases pressures of the heart. Pride connects the mind and the heart with the soul.
Essential. Regardless of how crazy we may feel. These feelings are essential. Not just to being a Mom, but to being a human being.
You call me crazy. I call me… real…
